14 weeks

Hi Pipsqueak!
I have SO much to tell you.  It has been a big week!  I think our biggest news is that we are home from the hospital and we are all sewn up.  You are sealed in there tight and we are going to make it until 39 weeks buddy.  We did our surgery today & heard you twice on the doppler.  You were doing great each time.  Dr. Bonebrake did say my cervix was starting to show signs of problems so we had good timing again. 

Now that we have that big news out of the way, let's backtrack a bit to our "announcement weekend."  On Christmas day, your brother Elijah wore his "Big Brother" shirt.  Great Gramma said "Oh, Elijah wants to be a big brother?" I said "No, Elijah IS GOING TO BE a Big Brother."  She was so excited, Auntie Val screamed she was so excited (and scared the Big Brother into crying), Auntie Kim teared up and Grampa Keith was so excited he texted his friends saying he was going to be a Grampa again!  Your Cvilikai cousins were happy & we asked Brandon to be your Godfather.  I am not sure when we will see him in person again so we had to jump all over it.  :)  He was excited and is looking forward to learning what the heck that means to him.  I am still trying to negotiate your college tuition to be paid by him but I don't think it will work out.  I told Daddy that he needs to pick out your Godmother or I will be accused of favortism towards my side of the family.  He is still thinking about that one.

After Great Gramma's house, we went to Gramma Debi D's house for a minute and they got to see Elijah's shirt too!  Everyone is so excited for you to be on your way.

The final reveal was on Sunday at Elijah's party.  I wore a shirt that said "Baby on Board June 2011."  So, all of the rest of our family could see the big news!  People were so happy for us and everyone is praying for a girl.  To be honest buddy, your dad and I don't care if you are a girl or a boy.  Just healthy & full term.  We will love you to pieces either way.  Personally, I would like to find out your gender and not tell anyone just to torture them.  But, your daddy is vetoing that idea  :)  Here is mommy in her shirt.  Gramma Debbie sent us this picture.

On Wednesday, Elijah went to visit Great Gramma and Auntie Val so you, your daddy and me went to dinner and a movie.  When the previews started, there was a loud boom of noise and I think it scared you.  It was the first time I felt you really flutter & move.  I have had flutters but I think they were all gas  :)  This one was a big flutter, it was isolated on its own and then it stopped.  It was like it startled you then you went back to sleep.  It was so exciting!

We are having some problems getting our blood sugars regulated.  We are on new meds to keep them down and they seem to be getting too low.  Dr. Bonebrake likes the lower the better and I think you like the lower the better.  But, we had 4 episodes this week where I was pretty sick - shaky, incoherent, and just plain out of it.  I don't like them that low.  I remember when Elijah was cooking in there, if they got too low, he would get upset at me and remind me to check them or eat.  When you get a bit bigger, you can do that too because these episodes were completely unexpected.

Another piece of excellent news (see, I told you there was a lot!) is that I emailed Kelley Ryden tonight and she has a class on June 29th.  It is PERFECT for your arrival and I am asking her to pencil you in.  WOOHOO - Kelley Ryden photos just like Elijah and during a baby posing class.  This is so exciting.  I had to run out to your daddy as soon as I got the news and say "BABY 2 HAS RESERVATIONS FOR KELLEY RYDEN.  DID YOU HEAR ME?  KELLEY RYDEN AGAIN."  :)  As you may  have heard (I will have to double check because I don't know if you can hear yet), I was completely excited and daddy was grinning ear to ear too.  Few things of note BABY 2 - this really puts pressure on us to keep you in cooking until a minimum of June 19th.  So, as we get to that 37th week (June 9th) and I am whining, I have to tell myself that you need to make it until June 19th for KELLEY RYDEN PHOTOS.  (Among the other reasons that I want you in there longer - this just adds to it)  She only takes newborns 10 days and younger so we are on a tight deadline.  You will have to cooperate with us as well because you can't come earlier than scheduled.  She does have a class on June 14th but that is too early - we want you in there longer.  As we get closer, your daddy and I will teach you how to pose, make sure you make weight and all sorts of other silly things that we did to your poor tortured brother before his Kelley Ryden photos.

Finally, I have something deep to share with you today because it was so exciting to me.  Ever since we knew you were on your way, I have been saying that we are tying my tubes when they cut you out.  I can't remember if I told you that Bonehead hasn't approved but I am fighting him on that  :)  Your daddy has agreed but he hasn't been 100% behind the idea.   He was of the mindset "What if we change our mind?"  Well, I knew for 110% I would not change my mind.  For one thing, I would like to avoid medicines for the rest of my life to make sure Baby 3 didn't appear.  I also knew that 2 is my limit.  I want to give you & Elijah so much in the world but if I keep having babies, there are only so many resources to go around.  I am also getting older - remember that Advanced Maternal Age stuff?  Finally, that last 9 years or so have been consumed about babies.  We were talking about having babies, deciding what to do to have babies, making babies, losing babies, talking more about what to do, etc.  I never felt any peace or relief about the topic until 11/08 when we decided to officially close the chapter on babies.  Well, God laughed at us and blessed us with Elijah and we were back on the baby merry go round - do we have another?  When?  How long should we wait? Should we try naturally?  It started all over again.  Our lives never move forward because we are always thinking about the next step in the baby process.

I do have a relevant point to all of this, pipsqueak.  It is just taking me a long time to get there.  So, today, I mention all of that to your daddy.  "Do you realize that when this baby comes, we will have been dealing with baby issues for 9 years?  I am so glad that is going to be all behind us and we are going to move forward."  He kind of ignores me and we go to lunch.  About an hour later, he says to me "You know, I finally get it - I finally understand why you want your tubes tied.  When you said that in the car about the last 9 years, I finally got it. I am also ready to put this behind us and move forward."  Seriously, pipsqueak, this was the best news ever!  While your daddy would never stop me from tying my tubes, it was just the knowledge that we were on the same page 100%.  It was so exciting that he was on the same wavelength as me.  He went on to talk about waiting for you 2 to be older so he can teach you to scuba dive (another topic for another day - my heart already started palpitating at the words), to go to the amusement parks with him and to (hopefully) have financial stability that we can do that with you both. YAY for all 4 of us!!

Well, I think that is all of my news for you for this week.  This upcoming week is a BIG week.  We are going to relax and recover on Friday & Saturday - unfortunately, you might also be a bit stoned for a couple of days as we manage the pain.  We have book club on Tuesday and, finally, we are going on Thursday for our checkup.  Bonehead will check to make sure his surgery looks perfect and we will hopefully get to see YOU!  When Elijah was 15 weeks, we knew for sure that he was a boy so we are really, really hoping you will cooperate and show us your parts.  It would be so awesome to know for sure if you are a boy or a girl - even though we still don't have a girl's name picked out.

Take care in there this week, pipsqueak!  Feel free to flutter it up and move for me and we will talk to you next week.  Maybe, just maybe, we will get a good photo to share with you too!

13 weeks

Hi Baby!
I have quite a few things to tell you from this week.  First off, we are at that magical 13 week number!  WOOHOO for us.  I guess maybe it isn't that magical for us - we need that magical 14 week number with our cerclage, don't we?  But, you are 1/3 of the way done cooking and I am so excited.  Thank you again for being so nice to me so far.  No vomiting, very little nausea and just being tired.  I couldn't ask for an easier 13 weeks.  We are coming up on the "easy" and fun time now and I hope that you continue to be so nice to me.

We heard you for the first time on the doppler this last week.  I was looking and looking then you appeared!  We listened again later so your daddy could hear too.  Made this whole pregnancy thing kind of real.  I guess you are really on your way, little peanut!

I think Mommy is looking a little pregnant.  I went out to dinner last night and I wore a new dress.  I went to the bathroom towards the end of dinner and I looked in the mirror.  The way the dress was draping, I looked HUGE - like 7 months pregnant.  I was so shocked.  In a way, I was surprised to be showing so quickly and in a way, I was excited.  I would rather look pregnant than fat so I will take it and wear that dress everyday  :)  Not only did I look pregnant on Tuesday, apparently, it was also obvious to Auntie Becky & Uncle Steve.  On cookie day last weekend, I guess they were scoping out my tummy.  Auntie Becky was so excited about the news!  We gotta hurry up and tell people before they know just by looking at me.

I have a funny for you.  I ended up telling your cousin Brandi and I told her it was a secret.  She said "My lips are as sealed as your cervix will be."  What a good one  :)

Well, baby, we have a big weekend ahead.  We have Christmas Eve on Friday.  Then, the big "reveal" on Christmas day to your Lang family.  Finally, the second "reveal" on Sunday to everyone else.  I hope that they are as excited as we are and I hope they are surprised!

12 weeks

Hi baby!
We were officially 12 weeks yesterday and we got to see you again at the doctors office.  You were sleeping at first and I had a touch of panic as you weren't moving and I couldn't see your heart fluttering.  Then, you were all over the place.  Sorry kiddo - no photos again.  Your poor scrapbook is empty - just one photo of all the pee sticks we took to make sure you were cooking in there.

We have big plans the next two weeks and I am so excited.  First off, next weekend, we get to tell everyone about you.  WOOHOO.  No more secrets.  No more people wondering why I am on the wagon or why I may just plain look fat  :)  We will have Elijah wear a shirt on Christmas Day that he is going to be a big brother and I will have a shirt at his party saying that we are expecting!

Then, in two weeks, we have our surgery to get you sewn in there.  I can't wait.  Once that happens, daddy and I will breathe a sigh of relief and relax.  After that, we will see you again on 1/6 and maybe you will kick your butt up in the air, open your legs and tell us if you are a boy or a girl.

Still no update on a name.  I have tried Avery, Macy, Amanda and nothing has stuck.  I really hope something comes to me.  I did dream about you this week a couple of times and that was a good feeling!

OK, kiddo, Merry Christmas and I will come back to tell you all about your family and how they reacted to the news that you are on your way!

First Baby Purchase

Hi little one!
We are 11 weeks today. Just a couple more weeks and we should be in the safe zone with you sewn in tight! Can't wait.

I forgot to tell you yesterday that I made my first purchase for you. We won't be buying a ton for you - probably some girly clothes and that will be all we need for awhile. Heck, we haven't even decided if you are going to get your own room or not! But, I digress. I bought the cutest little thing for you and I may have jinxed your gender - since I bought some girly, you probably have a penis growing right now :) But, I am only out $9 if that is the case and it will be beautiful on the first little girl that arrives to the family.

I am starting to get a bit nervous for your arrival. Elijah was sick last night and I find myself asking how we are going to handle 2 sick kids or even 1 sick kid and 1 active kid? Then, I had the TV on TLC "Bringing Home Baby." They had a 19 month old and a newborn - just like we will. They said it was much harder than they thought it would be. My guess is that we are just going to be exhausted for like 5 years or so.

We see you again next week squirt! Can't wait.

Gender predictor test

Hi squid -
I bought us a test that is supposed to tell us if you are a boy or a girl. It starts working at 10 weeks but is most effective at 14 weeks. I did it at 10 w 5 days. I figured that we would see you at the ultrasound at 14 weeks. I had to pee in a cup and then you put a dye in it. If it turns green, you are a girl. If it turns orange, you are a boy.

***drum roll****

Immediate green! I can't say I was surprised - you have been so nice to me for almost 11 weeks now that I have always assumed you were a little girl!

We will wait to see what the dr. says officially in a few weeks.

10 weeks

Hi Squirt!
We had our 10 week appointment today and all is well with you. Measuring right on track and good heartbeat. When you first came on the screen, your butt was up in the air and your legs were just going crazy. We still didn't get any good photos of you but it was fun watching you moving all around.

I got in trouble and have to go back to diabetes school. My A1C was good but my daily sugars are too high. If I don't get them down with the education, I will have to go on meds. I am going to get my lecture...oops, education...tomorrow morning.

We will see you again in 2 weeks and I hope that we can see you a bit clearer. Keep growing in there and keep being nice to me - still not a ton of sickness! I told Bonehead you must be a girl :)

Happy Thanksgiving!

Hi Baby!
Happy Thanksgiving and happy 9 weeks old. Today is bittersweet because we are so thankful for you & your brother but I won't be able to shout that from the rooftops as I am really trying to make it until Christmas to spill the beans! So, please know that we are very thankful for you & you growing in there.

This past week, you have still been good to me. Only a bit of nausea - much less than in all my other pregnancies. I still am leaning towards you being a girl since you are being so darn nice to me :)

I was looking at my family tree as I am having a very difficult time figuring out what to name you. I came up with a few possibilities but I don't think any of them are sticking yet. We have 28+ weeks to figure it out!

I have been feeling a bit sad for you lately, squid. I did such a good job writing on this blog for the twins in 2008 and Elijah in 2009. Now, you are on your way and I am out of wisdom to share with you. For my most "deep" thoughts, I can only refer to their books. I guess you will be experiencing "2nd child syndrome" really early!

Well baby - 1 more week until we see you again. Enjoy all the good food today & I will try to take it somewhat easy on the sugar :)

First visit to Dr. Bonehead!

Hi little squid!
Daddy calls Elijah squidward but you are also a little squid - you are still a little worm shape and no baby shape in there. We are 8 weeks today so it was time to go visit Dr. Bonehead. He is in a brand new office clear out west - we have to pack a lunch to go see him. It was good to see him and joke around with him. But, the best part was that we were able to see you again! Your heartbeat was good and strong.

I don't think we are going to have our surgery until the very last few days of December. I was hoping to get it sooner but it didn't sound like there was any negotiating to be done! The good news is that we will get to see you at 10 weeks and at 12 weeks. After that, we will probably go monthly and we can all relax because you will be sewn in tight.

As far as being pregnant, you are being pretty darn good to me. I am exhausted - a lot! I am not doing too badly with the morning sickness - it is pretty mild so far. For that reason alone, I think you are a girl. But, I also thought Elijah was a girl and look where that ended up! Like with all my pregnancies, I am craving a lot of fruit. No mexican this time though - it doesn't even sound good. Another indicator that you are not a boy!

Right now, my biggest stress is your name. We have you all settled for a boy but a girl is so up in the air. I really thought that you would be Baby J whether you were a boy or girl but now I don't think so. It is so stressful to come up with something that will be with you for the rest of your life. I hope, that like Elijah, a name will divinely come to me that will suit you perfectly.

Well squid, we will see you again in 2 weeks. Please stay in there cooking and keep the hormone juice to a minimum!

First glimpse...

Hi baby J,
we got to see you today buddy! It was nerve wracking and exciting. Nerve wracking to make sure there was only one of you and exciting to make sure you were in there and growing. Your heart beating jumped out immediately on the screen so we knew you were in there kicking! You were beating 148 a minute and you were 12cm long. I said a prayer thanking God that you existed, were healthy and you were in there by yourself!

Next up: We have an appointment with Dr. Bonebrake next Thursday. We will figure out when our surgery will be. We will get to see you again in just one week!

PS. We did get a photo of you today but it is really hard to see anything besides a fat little worm looking baby :)

All is well!

Hi Baby J,
After a nerve wracking 4 days, I had blood work done today & you are OK! We needed 960 and we had 1036. As the afternoon wore on, I was getting more and more nervous. My stomach was all knotted up & I think I may have even been starting to have an anxiety attack. Thank God for good news.

Our next step is to wait a long, long 16 days before our ultrasound to see you. It is possible that there are more than one of you but I am fully expecting to only see 1 baby in there. My logical brain is telling me that if there were twins, we wouldn't have had problems doubling our numbers during those 48 hours.

Well, Baby J, keep growing in there & getting bigger. Can't wait to see you in 16 days! Thank you for making your mommy & daddy very, very happy today.

And...not such good news

Hi Baby J,
Well, we had a bit of shocking news on Thursday. When I went to get my blood test, we should have had a number of 282. Instead, we had 240. While this doesn't categorically mean that you are not in there cooking anymore, it is a red flag. I have to go back Monday for another test and we would want a minimum 640 but we would really like to see 960. These results could mean any number of things - we have an ectopic pregnancy, we are losing the pregnancy, we had multiples and now there are not or it could be that things are perfectly normal and you are taking 72 hours to output the hormones versus 48. I have never had a pregnancy where my numbers didn't double so this was a red flag. However, the internet said that doubling every 48-72 hours is normal.

I went through a lot of emotions when I got the call. First was my defense mechanism - it is OK, whatever God's plan is for us is what will happen. Then, I was really sad because I feared that we were losing you all together. I don't think we will ever know if there were two of you - unless you are both still cooking at our ultrasound. But, there was a tinge of sadness that it was possible that we lost one of you. Even though I think we are much better equipped to have 1 baby rather than 2, it still would be sad to think we lost another baby. Since I was so busy this weekend, I didn't have a ton of time to stew about it. I can only wait and see tomorrow when we get our blood test back. The good news is that there have been no physical signs of loss so I am crossing my fingers and praying multiple times a day that things are fine tomorrow.

Well, Baby J, it is time to do your part. Keep growing in there and kicking out the hormone juice :) We will get more news tomorrow.

News

Hi Baby J!
I have good news and I have bad news. I went to the doctor today & had my blood work drawn. I waited anxiously from 8:30 until 1:30 when they called to give the results. I knew it would show me as "pregnant" but the numbers also are an indicator of whether or not there could be multiples. I was hoping for about 80-100. In our prior pregnancies, we were around 300 but we were also testing 1-2 days later. I think that the best way to tell you the story is in narrative form:

Mommy: Hello
Nurse Dani: Hi Stacy, It’s Dani.
Mommy: Hi Dani – did you make me a baby? (Side note to you Baby J - Dani was the nurse who performed our procedure)
Dani: Well, I think we made you 2.
Mommy: SHUT UP. My numbers are that high? They are already 300?
Dani: No, they are not 300. They are 141 but you have to remember that you are testing a full day earlier than you should. They are very, very healthy numbers and my best guess is that there are twins.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Dani: Obviously, we won’t know for sure until we do the ultrasound but it is always best to prepare yourself for the twins and then if there is only 1, you can relax.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Dani: Um, do you have your next appointment scheduled?
Mommy: Yes, I am coming in Thursday
Dani: Ok, we will see you then. Congratulations.
Mommy: (silence, shock)

Now, just to close the loop, Daddy called while I was talking to Dani. I called him back. Again, probably best to just transcript.
Mommy: Hi. I was talking to Dani when you called.
Daddy: Oh yeah? Baby Daddy called, huh?
Mommy: Yes, yes she did. Baby Daddy of twins.
Daddy: (Silence, shock)
Daddy: (More silence, shock)
Daddy: Shut up, you are kidding right?
Mommy: Nope (repeat conversation above)
Daddy: (Silence, shock)
Extended pause between both parties
Daddy: Oh well, we will wait and see and deal with what happens.

So, good news: I am pregnant officially now. Bad news: I was seriously not prepared for twins. I knew it was a possibility but in my gut, I never, ever thought it would be a reality.

Then, I called to get our appointment with Bonehead. Even though it is 4 weeks before we can see him, I figured I would get on the calendar. That is also a mixed bag of news. Good News: We are on the calendar to see Bonehead. Bad News: I am required to see a genetic counselor as I am of "advanced maternal age." Seriously? She asked if I had counseling last year and I stammered and stuttered with an answer of "Um, no, I am not old." She politely told me that I may not have been old when I was pregnant with Elijah but I am old now with you Baby J.

Well, that was a shock to the system - multiples and being told I am old!! At the end of the day baby, it is all good because you are cooking. There is no guarantee there is a sibling in there with you but we know for sure you are cooking!

Next up:
Blood work on Thursday to confirm that the numbers doubled.
Ultrasound the week of 11/10 to see your heartbeat
Bonehead on 11/18
Lots of worrying about keeping you healthy and growing until I get my stitch
Lots of worrying about how we financially can handle multiples and Elijah
Lots of worrying about how we can emotionally have 3 kiddos under 2
Keeping an eye on the TV for mini van ads (haha)

You are on your way!

Hi Baby J -
Well, it is official - we got a positive test. You are on your way!! I admit that I tested way too early. I had a bunch of tests from Amazon that I bought last year so I knew I could waste them. I started on Wednesday - even though I knew the numbers would never be large enough to show a positive. Another negative on Thursday. On Friday, I couldn't tell if my eyes were playing tricks on me but there was a faint line. On Saturday, another faint line. This morning - a darker line that appeared quicker. WOOHOO Baby J - you are created, growing and throwing off hormones!!!

I was so happy when I saw that faint line. I can't wait to go through these next 9 months with you. I can't wait to feel you moving around in there & see your ultrasounds. I can't wait to meet you. But, I am still VERY nervous. Our first milestone will be our first ultrasound at the fertility clinic. That will show us your heartbeat. Then, I have to wait until we get our cerclage so we know you are sewn in tight. Then, finally, I can relax and talk to you and enjoy you.

I really, really want to relax and enjoy every minute of this pregnancy. I know that it is my last one and I want to savor it. I want to eat better so I am not so reliant on insulin and I don't want to gain as much weight. I want to keep you in there cooking longer than 37 weeks so we have a better shot at breast feeding. I hope I am not as big of a whiner this time like I was with Elijah!

Your daddy's face lit up and he gave me a hug & kiss. He is excited for you too. Our goal is to not tell anyone until Christmas but we really doubt that we can hold out that long :)

Can't wait to continue this journey with you Baby J. Stay in there growing and cooking until we can get you sewn in. We love you already!

1 week down, 1 week to go

Well Baby J, we are half way to seeing if you decided to come into our family. I must confess that it seems like it has been a month since our last doctor's appointment - even though it has only been a week. Each day goes by quickly but the cumulative affect seems to be dragging on and on...

After our appointment, I thought there was absolutely no way that this didn't work. However, as the time has gone on, my opinion has changed and I am thinking that this isn't the month you have decided to join our family. Your daddy & one of my friends say that I say that every cycle! I need to do some serious soul searching as to whether or not I want to do another cycle if the test is negative. If I could snap my fingers and make you be here, I would in a heartbeat. But, I am just not sure if I want to go through the hormones, shots and appointments again. I think it would be awesome for Elijah to be a big brother to you & it would make our family complete to be at 4 people. On the other hand, I don't think there is anything wrong with only having one child and the attention/resources to devote to one. Only time will tell next week with our test and what decision we make then.

I hope this week goes by quickly & the next thing I write to tell you is that you are officially in there cooking!

Today was the day!

Hi Baby J!
Well, today was the big day. Within in the next 12 hours or so, we hope you are conceived! I finished all the meds, we did our ultrasounds and today, we had our final doctors appointment to "make" you! According to the docs, there are 4 eggs just waiting for the 23 million sperm that are on their way. We are going to pray that only 1 egg and 1 sperm get together so we only have 1 Baby J :)

This cycle went really quickly. I didn't notice the medicine until late last night & this morning. Then, I started getting that pain that comes with having so many eggs - while only 4 are ready, there are tons more growing and it makes for a sensitive mid section. I have been sick so I think I am more focused on my sinus issues than the feelings of the meds. But, it all wraps up together to make me sick!

We will wait about 2 weeks to see if you decided to join our family or not. I typically know about 3 days earlier than I should officially test. That would mean we may know something on Sunday the 17th. When I type that, it strikes me how ironic that is - we could learn if we are pregnant with you on the day that marks the anniversary of Xander & Jacob being born. If you decide that this isn't the month that you want to join us, we will probably skip October as I will be out of town during the crucial days that I would need to be at the doctor.

I pray that this works for us and you are ready to join our little family, Baby J. Your presence would make our family complete. :)

On the meds

Hi Baby J,
I started last week with different expectations than what has actually transpired. I thought we were going to be on very low dose meds so that we were going to be only having *1* Baby J. I think I misinterpreted those directions and when I heard 3 bottles of medicine, I thought it was for the whole cycle. Turns out it was 3 bottles per day which is what we were previously on when we were pregnant with 42 babies! So, I may have to start saying Babies J and ??! I have decided that I will jokingly say there are 53 this time since I already had so many eggs that she gave up counting. Today was my first day of shooting up the medicine. I have taken my pills but the heavy artillery is really getting whipped out now.

I wonder if your brother Elijah can sense it. He has been a bit fussy since I went to the doctor. Maybe he realizes that we are trying to turn you into a reality and he is going to transform from his normal, laid-back self to demon child. Either way, we are now officially on this journey. Day 1 of meds have been shot up and hopefully, one of those little eggs is going to hold our Baby J in them.

One item I would like to note in the vein of keeping it real, I am fairly concerned about how these hormones will affect me. It may be in my head but I think the pills were starting to affect me - I was having hot/cold flashes and possibly even some emotional swings. Now, we are going back to the big dogs and I am 2 years older than when we did it last time. I could be in trouble - well, Baby J, really it is your dad that is more in trouble as he has to put up with me. I am not complaining - my goal is to save the complaining for really big issues. I am locked, loaded and ready for it to happen but I am a tad scared as to what is in store for us over the next 2-3 weeks :)

Day 1

Hi Baby J,
You are just a twinkling in our hearts right now but today marks day 1 of us trying to make you a reality. We have no idea if you will ever get here but we pray that sometime in the next 3 months we can get you conceived and on your way. Today marks day 1 of that journey - I will go to the doctor tomorrow and get us started on medicine and blood work.

We are so excited to start this journey and I have been waiting impatiently for about 5 days to get started. Last night, I was so nauseous that I felt pregnant but I was able to get over it by mentally telling myself it is just my hormones being out of whack in preparation for you to be conceived. Now that we have had Elijah, I think that I will be able to mentally survive pregnancy 100% better than I did during my other ones. I know what to expect and I know what will be waiting at the end of the journey.

Our plan is to do 2-3 cycles of lower dose treatments and hope you are conceived during one of them. Otherwise, we will just relax and go natural next year. If that doesn't happen, then it just was meant for Elijah to be an only child. But, we both pray for you to make an arrival sometime in June :)

I won't post to you everyday but maybe on the big days, sad days or anxious days. But, I wanted you to know that today was DAY 1 to Baby J hopefully being conceived!

ELIJAH'S STORY IS BEING CONTINUED...

Since this blog was about our pregnancies, I have started a new blog just for updates on Elijah. Maybe I will reactivate this blog if there were to be another immaculate conception baby in our future :)

You can find all the current information about Elijah here:

http://elijaheveryday.blogspot.com/

Thanks for reading all about our pregnancy all these months.
Mark, Stacy & Baby Elijah