On the meds

Hi Baby J,
I started last week with different expectations than what has actually transpired. I thought we were going to be on very low dose meds so that we were going to be only having *1* Baby J. I think I misinterpreted those directions and when I heard 3 bottles of medicine, I thought it was for the whole cycle. Turns out it was 3 bottles per day which is what we were previously on when we were pregnant with 42 babies! So, I may have to start saying Babies J and ??! I have decided that I will jokingly say there are 53 this time since I already had so many eggs that she gave up counting. Today was my first day of shooting up the medicine. I have taken my pills but the heavy artillery is really getting whipped out now.

I wonder if your brother Elijah can sense it. He has been a bit fussy since I went to the doctor. Maybe he realizes that we are trying to turn you into a reality and he is going to transform from his normal, laid-back self to demon child. Either way, we are now officially on this journey. Day 1 of meds have been shot up and hopefully, one of those little eggs is going to hold our Baby J in them.

One item I would like to note in the vein of keeping it real, I am fairly concerned about how these hormones will affect me. It may be in my head but I think the pills were starting to affect me - I was having hot/cold flashes and possibly even some emotional swings. Now, we are going back to the big dogs and I am 2 years older than when we did it last time. I could be in trouble - well, Baby J, really it is your dad that is more in trouble as he has to put up with me. I am not complaining - my goal is to save the complaining for really big issues. I am locked, loaded and ready for it to happen but I am a tad scared as to what is in store for us over the next 2-3 weeks :)

Day 1

Hi Baby J,
You are just a twinkling in our hearts right now but today marks day 1 of us trying to make you a reality. We have no idea if you will ever get here but we pray that sometime in the next 3 months we can get you conceived and on your way. Today marks day 1 of that journey - I will go to the doctor tomorrow and get us started on medicine and blood work.

We are so excited to start this journey and I have been waiting impatiently for about 5 days to get started. Last night, I was so nauseous that I felt pregnant but I was able to get over it by mentally telling myself it is just my hormones being out of whack in preparation for you to be conceived. Now that we have had Elijah, I think that I will be able to mentally survive pregnancy 100% better than I did during my other ones. I know what to expect and I know what will be waiting at the end of the journey.

Our plan is to do 2-3 cycles of lower dose treatments and hope you are conceived during one of them. Otherwise, we will just relax and go natural next year. If that doesn't happen, then it just was meant for Elijah to be an only child. But, we both pray for you to make an arrival sometime in June :)

I won't post to you everyday but maybe on the big days, sad days or anxious days. But, I wanted you to know that today was DAY 1 to Baby J hopefully being conceived!