Hi Baby J -
Well, it is official - we got a positive test. You are on your way!! I admit that I tested way too early. I had a bunch of tests from Amazon that I bought last year so I knew I could waste them. I started on Wednesday - even though I knew the numbers would never be large enough to show a positive. Another negative on Thursday. On Friday, I couldn't tell if my eyes were playing tricks on me but there was a faint line. On Saturday, another faint line. This morning - a darker line that appeared quicker. WOOHOO Baby J - you are created, growing and throwing off hormones!!!
I was so happy when I saw that faint line. I can't wait to go through these next 9 months with you. I can't wait to feel you moving around in there & see your ultrasounds. I can't wait to meet you. But, I am still VERY nervous. Our first milestone will be our first ultrasound at the fertility clinic. That will show us your heartbeat. Then, I have to wait until we get our cerclage so we know you are sewn in tight. Then, finally, I can relax and talk to you and enjoy you.
I really, really want to relax and enjoy every minute of this pregnancy. I know that it is my last one and I want to savor it. I want to eat better so I am not so reliant on insulin and I don't want to gain as much weight. I want to keep you in there cooking longer than 37 weeks so we have a better shot at breast feeding. I hope I am not as big of a whiner this time like I was with Elijah!
Your daddy's face lit up and he gave me a hug & kiss. He is excited for you too. Our goal is to not tell anyone until Christmas but we really doubt that we can hold out that long :)
Can't wait to continue this journey with you Baby J. Stay in there growing and cooking until we can get you sewn in. We love you already!
