Hi Baby J,
Well, we had a bit of shocking news on Thursday. When I went to get my blood test, we should have had a number of 282. Instead, we had 240. While this doesn't categorically mean that you are not in there cooking anymore, it is a red flag. I have to go back Monday for another test and we would want a minimum 640 but we would really like to see 960. These results could mean any number of things - we have an ectopic pregnancy, we are losing the pregnancy, we had multiples and now there are not or it could be that things are perfectly normal and you are taking 72 hours to output the hormones versus 48. I have never had a pregnancy where my numbers didn't double so this was a red flag. However, the internet said that doubling every 48-72 hours is normal.
I went through a lot of emotions when I got the call. First was my defense mechanism - it is OK, whatever God's plan is for us is what will happen. Then, I was really sad because I feared that we were losing you all together. I don't think we will ever know if there were two of you - unless you are both still cooking at our ultrasound. But, there was a tinge of sadness that it was possible that we lost one of you. Even though I think we are much better equipped to have 1 baby rather than 2, it still would be sad to think we lost another baby. Since I was so busy this weekend, I didn't have a ton of time to stew about it. I can only wait and see tomorrow when we get our blood test back. The good news is that there have been no physical signs of loss so I am crossing my fingers and praying multiple times a day that things are fine tomorrow.
Well, Baby J, it is time to do your part. Keep growing in there and kicking out the hormone juice :) We will get more news tomorrow.
