Hi Baby J,
After a nerve wracking 4 days, I had blood work done today & you are OK! We needed 960 and we had 1036. As the afternoon wore on, I was getting more and more nervous. My stomach was all knotted up & I think I may have even been starting to have an anxiety attack. Thank God for good news.
Our next step is to wait a long, long 16 days before our ultrasound to see you. It is possible that there are more than one of you but I am fully expecting to only see 1 baby in there. My logical brain is telling me that if there were twins, we wouldn't have had problems doubling our numbers during those 48 hours.
Well, Baby J, keep growing in there & getting bigger. Can't wait to see you in 16 days! Thank you for making your mommy & daddy very, very happy today.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
And...not such good news
Hi Baby J,
Well, we had a bit of shocking news on Thursday. When I went to get my blood test, we should have had a number of 282. Instead, we had 240. While this doesn't categorically mean that you are not in there cooking anymore, it is a red flag. I have to go back Monday for another test and we would want a minimum 640 but we would really like to see 960. These results could mean any number of things - we have an ectopic pregnancy, we are losing the pregnancy, we had multiples and now there are not or it could be that things are perfectly normal and you are taking 72 hours to output the hormones versus 48. I have never had a pregnancy where my numbers didn't double so this was a red flag. However, the internet said that doubling every 48-72 hours is normal.
I went through a lot of emotions when I got the call. First was my defense mechanism - it is OK, whatever God's plan is for us is what will happen. Then, I was really sad because I feared that we were losing you all together. I don't think we will ever know if there were two of you - unless you are both still cooking at our ultrasound. But, there was a tinge of sadness that it was possible that we lost one of you. Even though I think we are much better equipped to have 1 baby rather than 2, it still would be sad to think we lost another baby. Since I was so busy this weekend, I didn't have a ton of time to stew about it. I can only wait and see tomorrow when we get our blood test back. The good news is that there have been no physical signs of loss so I am crossing my fingers and praying multiple times a day that things are fine tomorrow.
Well, Baby J, it is time to do your part. Keep growing in there and kicking out the hormone juice :) We will get more news tomorrow.
Well, we had a bit of shocking news on Thursday. When I went to get my blood test, we should have had a number of 282. Instead, we had 240. While this doesn't categorically mean that you are not in there cooking anymore, it is a red flag. I have to go back Monday for another test and we would want a minimum 640 but we would really like to see 960. These results could mean any number of things - we have an ectopic pregnancy, we are losing the pregnancy, we had multiples and now there are not or it could be that things are perfectly normal and you are taking 72 hours to output the hormones versus 48. I have never had a pregnancy where my numbers didn't double so this was a red flag. However, the internet said that doubling every 48-72 hours is normal.
I went through a lot of emotions when I got the call. First was my defense mechanism - it is OK, whatever God's plan is for us is what will happen. Then, I was really sad because I feared that we were losing you all together. I don't think we will ever know if there were two of you - unless you are both still cooking at our ultrasound. But, there was a tinge of sadness that it was possible that we lost one of you. Even though I think we are much better equipped to have 1 baby rather than 2, it still would be sad to think we lost another baby. Since I was so busy this weekend, I didn't have a ton of time to stew about it. I can only wait and see tomorrow when we get our blood test back. The good news is that there have been no physical signs of loss so I am crossing my fingers and praying multiple times a day that things are fine tomorrow.
Well, Baby J, it is time to do your part. Keep growing in there and kicking out the hormone juice :) We will get more news tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
News
Hi Baby J!
I have good news and I have bad news. I went to the doctor today & had my blood work drawn. I waited anxiously from 8:30 until 1:30 when they called to give the results. I knew it would show me as "pregnant" but the numbers also are an indicator of whether or not there could be multiples. I was hoping for about 80-100. In our prior pregnancies, we were around 300 but we were also testing 1-2 days later. I think that the best way to tell you the story is in narrative form:
Mommy: Hello
Nurse Dani: Hi Stacy, It’s Dani.
Mommy: Hi Dani – did you make me a baby? (Side note to you Baby J - Dani was the nurse who performed our procedure)
Dani: Well, I think we made you 2.
Mommy: SHUT UP. My numbers are that high? They are already 300?
Dani: No, they are not 300. They are 141 but you have to remember that you are testing a full day earlier than you should. They are very, very healthy numbers and my best guess is that there are twins.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Dani: Obviously, we won’t know for sure until we do the ultrasound but it is always best to prepare yourself for the twins and then if there is only 1, you can relax.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Dani: Um, do you have your next appointment scheduled?
Mommy: Yes, I am coming in Thursday
Dani: Ok, we will see you then. Congratulations.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Now, just to close the loop, Daddy called while I was talking to Dani. I called him back. Again, probably best to just transcript.
Mommy: Hi. I was talking to Dani when you called.
Daddy: Oh yeah? Baby Daddy called, huh?
Mommy: Yes, yes she did. Baby Daddy of twins.
Daddy: (Silence, shock)
Daddy: (More silence, shock)
Daddy: Shut up, you are kidding right?
Mommy: Nope (repeat conversation above)
Daddy: (Silence, shock)
Extended pause between both parties
Daddy: Oh well, we will wait and see and deal with what happens.
So, good news: I am pregnant officially now. Bad news: I was seriously not prepared for twins. I knew it was a possibility but in my gut, I never, ever thought it would be a reality.
Then, I called to get our appointment with Bonehead. Even though it is 4 weeks before we can see him, I figured I would get on the calendar. That is also a mixed bag of news. Good News: We are on the calendar to see Bonehead. Bad News: I am required to see a genetic counselor as I am of "advanced maternal age." Seriously? She asked if I had counseling last year and I stammered and stuttered with an answer of "Um, no, I am not old." She politely told me that I may not have been old when I was pregnant with Elijah but I am old now with you Baby J.
Well, that was a shock to the system - multiples and being told I am old!! At the end of the day baby, it is all good because you are cooking. There is no guarantee there is a sibling in there with you but we know for sure you are cooking!
Next up:
Blood work on Thursday to confirm that the numbers doubled.
Ultrasound the week of 11/10 to see your heartbeat
Bonehead on 11/18
Lots of worrying about keeping you healthy and growing until I get my stitch
Lots of worrying about how we financially can handle multiples and Elijah
Lots of worrying about how we can emotionally have 3 kiddos under 2
Keeping an eye on the TV for mini van ads (haha)
I have good news and I have bad news. I went to the doctor today & had my blood work drawn. I waited anxiously from 8:30 until 1:30 when they called to give the results. I knew it would show me as "pregnant" but the numbers also are an indicator of whether or not there could be multiples. I was hoping for about 80-100. In our prior pregnancies, we were around 300 but we were also testing 1-2 days later. I think that the best way to tell you the story is in narrative form:
Mommy: Hello
Nurse Dani: Hi Stacy, It’s Dani.
Mommy: Hi Dani – did you make me a baby? (Side note to you Baby J - Dani was the nurse who performed our procedure)
Dani: Well, I think we made you 2.
Mommy: SHUT UP. My numbers are that high? They are already 300?
Dani: No, they are not 300. They are 141 but you have to remember that you are testing a full day earlier than you should. They are very, very healthy numbers and my best guess is that there are twins.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Dani: Obviously, we won’t know for sure until we do the ultrasound but it is always best to prepare yourself for the twins and then if there is only 1, you can relax.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Dani: Um, do you have your next appointment scheduled?
Mommy: Yes, I am coming in Thursday
Dani: Ok, we will see you then. Congratulations.
Mommy: (silence, shock)
Now, just to close the loop, Daddy called while I was talking to Dani. I called him back. Again, probably best to just transcript.
Mommy: Hi. I was talking to Dani when you called.
Daddy: Oh yeah? Baby Daddy called, huh?
Mommy: Yes, yes she did. Baby Daddy of twins.
Daddy: (Silence, shock)
Daddy: (More silence, shock)
Daddy: Shut up, you are kidding right?
Mommy: Nope (repeat conversation above)
Daddy: (Silence, shock)
Extended pause between both parties
Daddy: Oh well, we will wait and see and deal with what happens.
So, good news: I am pregnant officially now. Bad news: I was seriously not prepared for twins. I knew it was a possibility but in my gut, I never, ever thought it would be a reality.
Then, I called to get our appointment with Bonehead. Even though it is 4 weeks before we can see him, I figured I would get on the calendar. That is also a mixed bag of news. Good News: We are on the calendar to see Bonehead. Bad News: I am required to see a genetic counselor as I am of "advanced maternal age." Seriously? She asked if I had counseling last year and I stammered and stuttered with an answer of "Um, no, I am not old." She politely told me that I may not have been old when I was pregnant with Elijah but I am old now with you Baby J.
Well, that was a shock to the system - multiples and being told I am old!! At the end of the day baby, it is all good because you are cooking. There is no guarantee there is a sibling in there with you but we know for sure you are cooking!
Next up:
Blood work on Thursday to confirm that the numbers doubled.
Ultrasound the week of 11/10 to see your heartbeat
Bonehead on 11/18
Lots of worrying about keeping you healthy and growing until I get my stitch
Lots of worrying about how we financially can handle multiples and Elijah
Lots of worrying about how we can emotionally have 3 kiddos under 2
Keeping an eye on the TV for mini van ads (haha)
Sunday, October 17, 2010
You are on your way!
Hi Baby J -
Well, it is official - we got a positive test. You are on your way!! I admit that I tested way too early. I had a bunch of tests from Amazon that I bought last year so I knew I could waste them. I started on Wednesday - even though I knew the numbers would never be large enough to show a positive. Another negative on Thursday. On Friday, I couldn't tell if my eyes were playing tricks on me but there was a faint line. On Saturday, another faint line. This morning - a darker line that appeared quicker. WOOHOO Baby J - you are created, growing and throwing off hormones!!!
I was so happy when I saw that faint line. I can't wait to go through these next 9 months with you. I can't wait to feel you moving around in there & see your ultrasounds. I can't wait to meet you. But, I am still VERY nervous. Our first milestone will be our first ultrasound at the fertility clinic. That will show us your heartbeat. Then, I have to wait until we get our cerclage so we know you are sewn in tight. Then, finally, I can relax and talk to you and enjoy you.
I really, really want to relax and enjoy every minute of this pregnancy. I know that it is my last one and I want to savor it. I want to eat better so I am not so reliant on insulin and I don't want to gain as much weight. I want to keep you in there cooking longer than 37 weeks so we have a better shot at breast feeding. I hope I am not as big of a whiner this time like I was with Elijah!
Your daddy's face lit up and he gave me a hug & kiss. He is excited for you too. Our goal is to not tell anyone until Christmas but we really doubt that we can hold out that long :)
Can't wait to continue this journey with you Baby J. Stay in there growing and cooking until we can get you sewn in. We love you already!
Well, it is official - we got a positive test. You are on your way!! I admit that I tested way too early. I had a bunch of tests from Amazon that I bought last year so I knew I could waste them. I started on Wednesday - even though I knew the numbers would never be large enough to show a positive. Another negative on Thursday. On Friday, I couldn't tell if my eyes were playing tricks on me but there was a faint line. On Saturday, another faint line. This morning - a darker line that appeared quicker. WOOHOO Baby J - you are created, growing and throwing off hormones!!!
I was so happy when I saw that faint line. I can't wait to go through these next 9 months with you. I can't wait to feel you moving around in there & see your ultrasounds. I can't wait to meet you. But, I am still VERY nervous. Our first milestone will be our first ultrasound at the fertility clinic. That will show us your heartbeat. Then, I have to wait until we get our cerclage so we know you are sewn in tight. Then, finally, I can relax and talk to you and enjoy you.
I really, really want to relax and enjoy every minute of this pregnancy. I know that it is my last one and I want to savor it. I want to eat better so I am not so reliant on insulin and I don't want to gain as much weight. I want to keep you in there cooking longer than 37 weeks so we have a better shot at breast feeding. I hope I am not as big of a whiner this time like I was with Elijah!
Your daddy's face lit up and he gave me a hug & kiss. He is excited for you too. Our goal is to not tell anyone until Christmas but we really doubt that we can hold out that long :)
Can't wait to continue this journey with you Baby J. Stay in there growing and cooking until we can get you sewn in. We love you already!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
1 week down, 1 week to go
Well Baby J, we are half way to seeing if you decided to come into our family. I must confess that it seems like it has been a month since our last doctor's appointment - even though it has only been a week. Each day goes by quickly but the cumulative affect seems to be dragging on and on...
After our appointment, I thought there was absolutely no way that this didn't work. However, as the time has gone on, my opinion has changed and I am thinking that this isn't the month you have decided to join our family. Your daddy & one of my friends say that I say that every cycle! I need to do some serious soul searching as to whether or not I want to do another cycle if the test is negative. If I could snap my fingers and make you be here, I would in a heartbeat. But, I am just not sure if I want to go through the hormones, shots and appointments again. I think it would be awesome for Elijah to be a big brother to you & it would make our family complete to be at 4 people. On the other hand, I don't think there is anything wrong with only having one child and the attention/resources to devote to one. Only time will tell next week with our test and what decision we make then.
I hope this week goes by quickly & the next thing I write to tell you is that you are officially in there cooking!
After our appointment, I thought there was absolutely no way that this didn't work. However, as the time has gone on, my opinion has changed and I am thinking that this isn't the month you have decided to join our family. Your daddy & one of my friends say that I say that every cycle! I need to do some serious soul searching as to whether or not I want to do another cycle if the test is negative. If I could snap my fingers and make you be here, I would in a heartbeat. But, I am just not sure if I want to go through the hormones, shots and appointments again. I think it would be awesome for Elijah to be a big brother to you & it would make our family complete to be at 4 people. On the other hand, I don't think there is anything wrong with only having one child and the attention/resources to devote to one. Only time will tell next week with our test and what decision we make then.
I hope this week goes by quickly & the next thing I write to tell you is that you are officially in there cooking!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Today was the day!
Hi Baby J!
Well, today was the big day. Within in the next 12 hours or so, we hope you are conceived! I finished all the meds, we did our ultrasounds and today, we had our final doctors appointment to "make" you! According to the docs, there are 4 eggs just waiting for the 23 million sperm that are on their way. We are going to pray that only 1 egg and 1 sperm get together so we only have 1 Baby J :)
This cycle went really quickly. I didn't notice the medicine until late last night & this morning. Then, I started getting that pain that comes with having so many eggs - while only 4 are ready, there are tons more growing and it makes for a sensitive mid section. I have been sick so I think I am more focused on my sinus issues than the feelings of the meds. But, it all wraps up together to make me sick!
We will wait about 2 weeks to see if you decided to join our family or not. I typically know about 3 days earlier than I should officially test. That would mean we may know something on Sunday the 17th. When I type that, it strikes me how ironic that is - we could learn if we are pregnant with you on the day that marks the anniversary of Xander & Jacob being born. If you decide that this isn't the month that you want to join us, we will probably skip October as I will be out of town during the crucial days that I would need to be at the doctor.
I pray that this works for us and you are ready to join our little family, Baby J. Your presence would make our family complete. :)
Well, today was the big day. Within in the next 12 hours or so, we hope you are conceived! I finished all the meds, we did our ultrasounds and today, we had our final doctors appointment to "make" you! According to the docs, there are 4 eggs just waiting for the 23 million sperm that are on their way. We are going to pray that only 1 egg and 1 sperm get together so we only have 1 Baby J :)
This cycle went really quickly. I didn't notice the medicine until late last night & this morning. Then, I started getting that pain that comes with having so many eggs - while only 4 are ready, there are tons more growing and it makes for a sensitive mid section. I have been sick so I think I am more focused on my sinus issues than the feelings of the meds. But, it all wraps up together to make me sick!
We will wait about 2 weeks to see if you decided to join our family or not. I typically know about 3 days earlier than I should officially test. That would mean we may know something on Sunday the 17th. When I type that, it strikes me how ironic that is - we could learn if we are pregnant with you on the day that marks the anniversary of Xander & Jacob being born. If you decide that this isn't the month that you want to join us, we will probably skip October as I will be out of town during the crucial days that I would need to be at the doctor.
I pray that this works for us and you are ready to join our little family, Baby J. Your presence would make our family complete. :)
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