Hi there little E,
Your mom is not a huge one to remember anniversaries of when people passed away or go to the cemetery - I feel like I can talk to them from the privacy of my own head. However, today marks the 1 year anniversary from when your little brothers were born. Man, that was the longest day ever! I am not going to go into details about it - you can read that in your brothers' book. However, I wanted to mention it here to you because I think you are a big part of the reason that this isn't bothering me today.
I can honestly say that the boys have crossed my mind today but not in a sad or emotional way. But, I don't know if that is because time has passed and I have healed or if it is just because you are here to distract me. You have been pretty darn active and it isn't because of sugar - I have been good all day. I think you are just moving around and making a fuss to remind me that even though we had our losses last year, we have to keep the faith that you are our future this year.
While I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, your dad and I were a little wistful today when we discussed it. If something so simple like a stitch could have kept your brothers in there cooking, it is a shame we lost them. I used to blame my weight or the diabetes but I was the thinnest I had ever been last year and was in diabetic remission. So, it just wasn't meant to work out with my cervix or I just couldn't carry twins. I guess the most important thing is that we have a solution for you and you are 25 1/2 weeks now! You can keep on causing a fuss to distract me though :)
On a side note, I had a completely vivid dream about your Gramma Debi D's sister last night. When the dream ended, I asked her to look after my son for the next 10 weeks or so and she said OK. While it was an interesting dream in itself, I was so darn excited that I called you my son for like 3 dreams in a row. I must have finally accepted your family jewels and there are no more baby girl dreams!
Can't wait to see you tomorrow kiddo. Please get all your orneriness out today & give us a good photo tomorrow.
