I can't really ignore this happening anymore! I have to think of a name to call this baby in my blog - peanut and squirt are already taken. I have been tossing around bebe, chere, pipsqueak and kiddo. Maybe next post, I will have made up my mind but I must confess that I am in shock again today kind of like I was on Monday.
I went to see Dr. McBride today and as they were doing an adjustment, they had to use an ultrasound. They took a peek to see if there was a baby in there - I was seriously not sure yet. At the same time, they were doing labs to get my HCG. Well, there is definitely a baby there and there is a heartbeat!! Mark and I couldn't see the machine so we didn't get our sneak peek but we know that we are a bit further along than we had previously anticipated. I was thinking I was 5 w 4 d and the HCG (25000) is showing that we could be anywhere from 3-9 weeks and the heart beat showing up is a minimum of 6 weeks. I guess we will see come June 2 but I don't think that I can pretend it is a dream anymore. I am pregnant - no drugs, no thoughts of having babies, no trying, nothing. Just BLAM - here it is.
I have had to start retraining Mark about just how difficult this motherhood and wombing thing is. He forgot that I shouldn't carry grocery bags or clean or anything so I am having to retrain him :) He forgot that all I am going to do is whine and complain for 7-8 months. He forgot that everytime he looks at me cross, I will say "But, I am carrying your child." haha. Poor guy blocked out the torture that was last summer. He will get back in shape soon.
Healthwise, I am exhausted. I am nauseous. After my doctor visit, my heartburn and reflux went away. Once again, (like my other two pregnancies that lasted longer than a week or 2) I am craving lots of fruit. I am up going to the bathroom again during the night and I am not sleeping well. All of those things add up to me thinking I am further along than I thought but we will wait and see on June 2.
