I am still ... unsettled. It is sinking in and I am talking about it but I don't think I will embrace it until we go to the doctor. Mark is giggling less and is getting more serious about worrying about a loss.
We laughed today how we are reluctant to tell anyone because when we say it was completely unexpected & we were not trying, they will all say "See, when you relax and quit trying, it happens. Should have stopped trying years ago." We also laughed because we sound like teenagers when we say "We only had sex once...how could this happen?" haha.
I think that after the doctor, I will be plunging in head first into being pregnant. I really have talked myself into thinking that if it happened on it's own, the baby is there on the ultrasound, and we get a cerclage in time, we will be safe. I hope that doesn't end up hurting me in the long run but besides taking care of myself, there isn't much I can do to change the outcome of anything. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change..."
