Hi Elijah!
I think your baby hormone juice, the holidays, discomfort (I think my stomach grew another 2 inches overnight) and missing some of your Grampas is making me a little blue tonight. I try to focus on the good things and how quickly the next few days are going to go until we meet you. I know that the joy you will bring us can't be described. But, thinking of you, your little face, nose toes and feet is also making me sad because we have lost so many people in the last few years and you aren't going to get the chance to know them. It seems to hit me out of the blue and the next thing I know, I am really upset. Guess it is a good thing I don't watch a lot of TV because those Hallmark commercials would turn me into a sobbing mess.
You got mad at me today. I checked my blood sugars and they were perfect. I had a protein shake for lunch and no carbs. Next thing you know, you are kicking, punching and generally being ticked off at me. I knew I was starting to get hungry and I figured my sugars had dropped a bit. I went to take them and they were REALLY low. Like a few points away from when the doctor wants to hear from us low. You don't like it when I do that to you. However, you are like a little internal blood sugar monitor because when you were so active (along with a few other signs), I knew I needed some sugar. Now, you are resting comfortably.
I was listening to some 3 Doors Down tunes and heard this song. I know it is intended for people in an intimate relationship but it made me think of you. It is odd how little things don't matter as much anymore knowing you are coming. I have had so many people ask me what your dad and I want for Christmas. Really, we have nothing on our lists because we are just waiting for you. While I can ask for fun cosmetics or perfume, truly, I would take no material presents just to have you here and healthy right now. You aren't here yet to give me a big hug and make your arms "feel like home" but we can just pretend that those big elbows you give me make me feel like home :)
There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
Ok bambino, that is enough for today. If you could kick the baby hormone juice down a bit, my mental sanity would appreciate it. Don't forget our deal - you can come now if you want but make sure that you break your water bag so we know you are officially on your way :)
