I have already told you guys my thoughts on religion and faith. Each night, I pray that you stay safe from harm, that you are healthy, that you grow up to be happy and that God blesses me with the wisdom to raise you to be good men and to have faith in God. I really don't care if that is faith in a Catholic God, a Lutheran God, a Jewish God or any other God. I just want you to have faith that there is some greater power in our world that is beyond our realm of thinking.
I may not like to go to church but I am a believer. I believe that there is some sort of heaven that we go to or some sort of other realm of existence. I believe in God. I want to give you a foundation so you can also believe in God. I was struggling with that. How do I start teaching you? I asked your godmother and she had some great suggestions. I prayed about it at night. All of a sudden I had a voice (I think of it as THEE voice - not the normal crazy voice that is my own but a voice I can recognize as completely coming from somewhere that I think to be God) that told me to start with you when Elijah turned 3. So, on his birthday, we started saying your prayers.
Each night, Elijah will say "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray to God my soul to keep. Please guide (Which she says God) me safely through the night and wake me with the morning light. Dear God, please bless (which he says blast).... Then, comes the nightly list. Without fail it goes like this..."Morgan, Jake, Tyler and Andrew." Then, if he had a really good day with someone, he will mention them. Otherwise, the daycare kids go next (including the dog) and that is about it. Sometimes, we will get mentioned like he is throwing us a pity bone. After he is done with his list, he says "Amen." It is a start.
Last weekend was Auntie Becky's birthday. We had already seen her and taken a gift so I knew we were covered. But, something kept nagging me to send her a video of you boys on her birthday. I got my phone out and I told Elijah to say Happy Birthday. When I hit record, he started singing Happy Birthday to her. He even blew out the candles. Joey said "Cheese" to the camera and bye-bye. It really was odd how I kept getting little nudges in my head to do it. Yesterday, I got a card form your Auntie Becky. She told me that she prayed for you guys to sing to her. She knew she was going to be lonely on her first birthday without Gramma Dorothy so she wanted to hear from you .
Now, I am a believer but this was such a confirmation to me on 2 things... 1) God answers our prayers. 2) Sometimes that little voice in my head is more than crazy ramblings or intuition. Sometimes that voice is that every powerful "THEE" voice - I have only had that happen 3 times. Some times that little thought in your head that you think is genius is really inspired by God planting the seed in you.
Just another testament to faith and believing in God - your Auntie Becky was hurting and prayed for a smile through you guys. God kept bugging me about it so I finally did it. Elijah sang without even being asked to. Can't get much closer to proof than that!
